Are my days better or worse?

My mom asked this question earlier this week and it made me think.  I don't know.  Sometimes I feel like it was all just a bad bad dream.  Until something reminds me.  The beautiful candle made from casket flowers arrives in the mail, an aquaintance asks how the baby is, the freaky stalker-like Target baby coupons arrive in the mail or a stranger asks how many children we have.  That is when my reality is no longer a dream.

I recently went to a friend's house that I visited the weekend before Charlie was born.  I realized that when I was there for the Christmas party I wasn't really mentally or emotionally in that place.  It was surreal to sit in her living room and remember what a different person I was then.  Not better or worse just different.

I have read blogs and books that would mention something was a "sign" and the skeptic in me would believe they were making the "sign" fit their situation.  I'm still a little cynical but I do believe over the last few months God has demonstrated his love is simple but moving ways.

For instance, I recently started running, okay jogging, alright technically a very, very brisk walking pace with a little bounce :) At about the 30 min mark my feet would fall asleep.  Not fun to run on that pins and needles feeling.  After a little research, I decided I needed new shoes.  I have always bought the same pair of shoes from Run On.  I just show them the old ones and they ring up the newest model.  It probably isn't a suprise that the last year has done a number on our finances.  We are clearly on a budget which doesn't include fancy running shoes.  However, Jared had received a $100 gift card and he generously offered to split it.  So we headed up to Academy and I tried on almost all the shoes under the $49.99.  None of them fit well.  I casually went down the more pricey aisle and a red tag stuck out $52.99.  Wait! Those were MY shoes!  I am sure they were the 2011 model but really "Who cares?!"  Amazingly there were ONE pair of the shoes and they were my size.  Jared found a pair he liked and when we got to the checkout stand our total was $100.52.

I know it is silly but in that moment I felt like God was patting us on the back saying, "The finances will work out just trust in Me."

Matthew 6:25-27 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?